Step into the office pavement Slaven eyes dwell in captivity We sell ourselves to the highest bidders They call us the life quitters We are bored inside & out We live life shrouded in doubt There's no which way to go but up But I'm falling so far down WE CRUCIFY OURSELVES FOR OUR GREED WE KILL OURSELVES FOR OUR PETY NEEDS And the lights go out Leaving us trapped with our insecurities My hands shaking – I grab onto my knees God help me, some one save me please... This guilt leaves me feeling so cold & alone The emptiness of this home The callowness of this man I'm sinking in quicksand It's now out of my hands I know for certain this man is damned... It's out of...It's out...It's out of my hands It's out of...It's out...It's out of my hands It's out of...It's out...It's out of my hands It's out of...It's out...It's out of my hands Break neck speed - into eternity Take more then you need Give into the greed Consume to see We are what we don't need Thought projections of everything That's wrong with this world... WE CRUCIFY OURSELVES FOR OUR GREED WE KILL OURSELVES FOR OUR PETY NEEDS

ABYSS a tale of the horrors of addiction as told through the words of the fallen. CHAPTER ONE: THE NUMBNESS (outside) I remember it was a cold brisk Sunday afternoon... The chills were striking me again.. The shakes in my hands. The twitches in my eyes. I couldn't tell whether I was moving forwards or backwards. Time seemed to be standing still. My thoughts echoed around in my head like a droning drum, annoying me & everyone around me... ..Surely it's projecting out... The drugs were running short... I looked out my window and I saw my dealer on the corner. I quickly ran down the stairs and met him - money in hand. He joyfully handed me a little baggy of relief. My medicine indeed was here. Upon injection, I knew immediately life would be fine. ...And it's all these things... ...and we lose our dreams... ...and life it screams never again.... The thoughts were running rampant in my head about escape. I knew...I knew that it was the best I could do, I would catch a bus on the edge of town and run as fast I could out... CHAPTER TWO: THE DESCENT (inside) I CAN'T - GET THIS – GODDAMN – SKIN OFF OF ME!!! MY SKIN IS CRAWLING! IT'S BECKONING FOR ME TO SHED IT!!! I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE. I NEED TO RUN. BUT JUST – JUST ONE MORE HIT. I NEED MY FIX. I NEED MY MIX AGAIN. Upon the ground, I knew my feet could not stand. I was weighted down with a thousand anchors tugging from all directions... My heart did bleed. There's no hope for me. There's no hope for this. My friends, well maybe they were right. Maybe I should just dope out of this life... Ohhh...There's blood everywhere again.. Fuck it, I think I hit a fucking muscle, that's gonna bruise a bit. {LAUGH} ...fuck me in the goat ass... CHAPTER THREE: THE REALIZATION (the next day) I couldn't believe I was still here... I saw rays of light.. through glued shut eyelids... I quickly dusted them away... I took a breath deeper then ever before... It was a gasp of life returning to dead lungs.. I was pale and weak.. The carpet was stained with my blood... And there was still a tray full of pills and half a bottle if I wanted them there staring at me. I grabbed a stolen ashtray I had sitting there on the counter. And quickly lit the last butt I had. My hands shaking, I came to grips – with this fate. I'M STILL HERE. I'M STILL FUCKING HERE & I CAN TRY. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU CAN FUCKING SUCK IT, BECAUSE I'M STILL HERE. Maybe I'll stick around a little more... and fuck a little more shit up.. Maybe I'll clean my life up... Maybe I'll find myself a nice wife and settle down. ...Maybe get myself a two car garage... ...INTO THE ABYSS.

WE LOVE JOY DIVISION & THIS SONG! music video coming soon!!! lyrics "Love Will Tear Us Apart" When routine bites hard, And ambitions are low, And resentment rides high, But emotions won't grow, And we're changing our ways, Taking different roads. Then love, love will tear us apart again. Love, love will tear us apart again. Why is the bedroom so cold? You've turned away on your side. Is my timing that flawed? Our respect runs so dry. Yet there's still this appeal That we've kept through our lives. But love, love will tear us apart again. Love, love will tear us apart again. You cry out in your sleep, All my failings exposed. And there's a taste in my mouth, As desperation takes hold. Just that something so good Just can't function no more. But love, love will tear us apart again. Love, love will tear us apart again. Love, love will tear us apart again. Love, love will tear us apart again. credits released 19 June 2014 Original version written by: Joy Division New Version re-imagined & performed by Mothracide!